Of forgiving and forgetting

I got off ME 171 exam just a moment ago. Came back to Mctyeire, met Dale, and we're kinda talk for a bit, about childhood's Final Fantasy and stuffs. He's a guy whose conversation is always filled with laughter. Dale's a chill guy, never fail to entertain me everyday with his sincerest smile, never hold grudges against other people. Hardly i see him frowning over anything, never did. I wish I was him sometimes, for being able to forgive and forget, having a bad day today and still able to smile at dinner time.

It reminds me to this conversation I had over the weekend "Syaf, just forgive and forget, it's better for you". And when I asked her how did she manage, she simply replied "I just go to sleep and the next day I knew it's already off my mind". My dear, I'm not you. I cannot simply change my behavior or simply change myself. Easier said than done. I knew I can't go to sleep over something of a foul mood and wake up tomorrow with the grin like Dale's.

Can I just forgive and forget? It's like concocting both remedy and poison in a single pot. As if having both sour and sweet in yourself, simultaneously. I know, I know, I'm just feeding excuses to myself. I'll try to be forgiving, and to be forgetful. I think I'm progressing, it was rather slow, but at least moving somewhere, I've already OK with a person who I've been ignoring since freshman year, I haven't talk to her, but I think deep in my heart, I've already began to accept her the way she is. In fact, I think she's wayyyy better than me, social-wise and other stuffs. I know what you think, not that kind of accepting, OK? ^^ But the kind of a companion accepting each other.... May god fill her life with more joy and berkat.





Thanks Dale, for always filling my life with joy in Mctyeire ^^
ほんとうにありがとうございます ^^